You keep cursing and yelling without thinking for a second how hurtful your words can be. They hit me like a sharp knife.
Knives.
I don't know why you're like that but you are. You think I'm dumb and I'm an idiot but I'm not. Frankly, I'm much more smarter than you and more of a genius. Have you ever thought that when I'm hesitant about something, maybe it's not because I'm stupid or because I don't know what to say, maybe it's because I'm scared to talk about it in front of you.
Yes. To be honest I am scared. I'm scared of you. I'm scared of you mocking me on my abilities because you always think that I'm trash talking but I am not. I'm not trash talking.
I'm scared to be 'me' in front of you.
Because you think I'm stupid. I'm not.
I love you. But you become like the 'world', heartless and ruthless. You mock me on my dreams, on my aspirations. I don't know why.
But I'm not stupid.
I know that you don't know who I am as a person. Of course how would you? You've been away 17 years of my life. How would you know how I am? How would you know I'm not trash talking? How would you know what I have done to be able to achieve my dream?
You haven't seen me work hard.
You haven't seen me the nights I've stayed up just to make sure I don't waste time.
You haven't seen my achievements.
You haven't seen how far I have grown.
I am proud of myself because I am amazing. I am NOT stupid.
I am amazing.
And I don't care what you think anymore.
