Mr. One and Only

So here I am, writing after a long long time as I lay in bed, wondering about the not so important things in life. One of them being my 'Prince Charming'. Ok, so first of all, I don't go along with this cliche. I do not want a prince charming. Yes, seriously I don't.

Why? Well because I'm sure he would be stuck up about himself and I'm not the prince charming typr anyways.
So the kind of guy I want, the guy I want to spend my life with...Aahh. I don't have the capacity of writing all of it because I'm sure there's too much I want him to be like but I'll just mention the most important stuff.
Ok so firstly, let me tell all you potential husbands out there, I am a very moody girl. Very spoilt. Very pampered. So I like attention. Yup, all heed on me. I have my mood swings often so beware.

Waittttt. Bad start I guess. I know I sound all so demanding and all, because for an average girl like me (Just being modest. True story) I shouldn't be having that many demands but my 'demands' aren't much of demands. They are just certain things I wish for in a guy.
For example, As I mentioned earlier that I don't want a prince charming-that's true. I don't want the perfect guy. I want an average guy out there whose imperfectness would be no match for anything else.
He should be tall. Well, yeah. He should be smart. I hate guys who act blonde. What a turn off. Guys aren't supposed to be blonde. That is just ridiculous. My guy should love me. And by that, it doesn't mean that he secretively sends me 'I love you' messages on text or facebook inbox, but rather he should show it in front of everyone. Ofcourse I'm not asking for anything related to Public Display of Affection (PDA) but I don't want a guy who would be scared to tell people that he loves me. Also, I want him to do little special things because they mean a lot.

Those little special things include buying me cute presents frequently. Well, atleast once a few months! :(
I love gifts! Be it whatever it is. I just love gifts and presents. What I love more is if a lot of effort is made onto it. Like, I love handmade cards. Totally a turn on. Or maybe a handmade dish.
I love food.

I want my guy to be funny. But not mean. By no means should he hit me, instead he should protect me from everyone else. I'm already extremely weak and I get annoyed if anyone hits me. I want my guy to live a decent life. He must NOT smoke. At all! He should be responsible. He should not be a miser.
Damn I hate misers. And he should pay for me most of the times. HELL YEAH, FOLLOWING THE TRADITIONAL WAYS.
Back to the little things, he should keep me happy. I don't want him to buy me cars (please do if you can afford it) but I want him to put in a lot of effort. I'm a person who gives in everything for someone and obviously I expect the same back.

Like, I don't want him to be all childish regarding things, making excuses all the time. I hate excuses. Just man up and be real.

A real turn off for a woman is when her guy backs out on her. Please don't. Also, be the one who your girl will find support in, not vice versa!

Okay yeah thats about it. Atleast the important part of it.
Cya!

EEEEPPPP CANT WAIT FOR MY GUY. 

Iris-Cover by Lylaa Shaikh and Haider Bakhtiari

Well, a few months back I performed in a gig in my college.
One hell of a crazy day it was. The day of the performance, I had an asthma attack and I was almost unable to sing. That same day, another singer lost his voice, and I had to accomodate for his song. Crazy, right?
All of us were freaking out, because what was meant to turn out to be amazing might just turn out to be something disastrous. Oh well. I had to suck in my whines, and deal with my asthma. My friend took me over to her place and made me nebulize until I wasnt okay. 


In the end that night did turn out to be an amazing one. :)
I performed a couple of songs, one of them being Iris which Haider Bakhtiari and I covered. Hope you enjoy it. Give in your feedback as well. 
Cheers!

Gibberish.

Life is complicated, hard to understand and comprehend. Takes a second to flip from one side to another. We go through many upturns, which at times make no sense at all.

From being happy, to sad, to angry, to confused and what not.
Life takes us at huge upheavals, turning everything upside down. What should one do then? There comes one point when one just wants to kill everyone.. when one just hates everything. What to do then?

Life gets really dark and tough. Everything seems as if its falling apart. When you feel hopeless and helpless. When you have no where to go, no one to run to, no one to talk to, no one to confide in.

Hello, world.

This is where I am living in. In a world full of people.. people who would hug me, love me, and smile at me. I look at them and wonder, how can everything be so perfect? But when I turn away, these people.. these very people would act as strangers.

This is where YOU all are living in.

Family, Friends.. these relationships will never last. Talk about hoping for relationships lasting for eternity, because lets face it, they never do.
People of this world are selfish and cruel. They will laugh at you, make fun of you and crush you down. They will break you, do everything to hurt you.


My feelings are empty. My emotions are confused. All my life, all I've ever done is try to be a good person to everyone. Is it wrong to expect them to do the same for me?

Haha, maybe I expect way too much.

I dont want it to be the way it is. I want it different. I want it good. I have nowhere to go, no one to run to, BUT THEY ALL DO. Not complaining. Not complaining.

The moment i'm going through is when I want all faces away from me. I want to be in solitude but I dont like being in solitude.
I want it all, and I want it good. I want to be selfish too, this is MY life and I want to be happy.

How would you like living in a moment when you suddenly realize how much you've lost? People say be grateful for what you have. Fine. But is it wrong to just feel bad about what you've lost?
I dont want to be grateful for what I have, cause I dont have anything that has made me happy, or made me smile.

People around me are fake. Everything they say to me is a lie. People I've met are wrong. All they do is hurt me.
Im not going to sit in a corner and cry about it. Know why? Cause why cry for those who dont deserve it.

Since I have nothing to lose anymore, I'll sit down and look at this world play its selfish acts.

11thAugust'11-Nightmare turned to a dream come true.

Yeah. WOOHOO. Made it to the highest achievers list. Should I call it a dream come true? Well, maybe.
According to me I don't really have that an awe-inspiring result in my Olevels, but whatever it is, am thankful for it. 3A*s 4As and 2Bs.

Satisfying much.

Result day was two days back, the most dreaded day EVER. The feelings are a bit complexed because as much as everybody was curious to know their results, they were scared as well, thinking they might've screwed up their Olevels. I was pretty chill until 12 hours before the day itself, and thats when I broke up into tears. I didnt show my frustration to my friends that much because they were themselves so stressed out thinking they'd end up with 'D's' or 'U's' and all the worst possible grades.

When the day arrived itself, heartbeats grew faster and so did tention. I told all my bestfriends to let me know their results. I was awake the whole night, excitement and adrenaline rushed deep inside! Outside I was quite, but inside I was screaming out for help, to end this nightmare, and to quickly get over this phase.
The first message I got was from a friend, and also my student who I taught Islamiyat. 7 am and a good news arises with a friend getting 4A*s and 5As. WOW! Called him up. Never had I been so proud of him then that day. I was so exhaulted and happy for him!
Gradually more good news came in. Even the friend who expected straight Us managed to get good grades. I congratulated each and every one of them. Never had I been proud of them all.

The point was that I was happy. For my friends. YES I WAS.
Few hours later I got to know mine as well. I was a bit down, because I hadnt expected to get a B and that too in Economics. Oh well. Thats just the way it was meant to be.

Came home, was a bit low. Called up dad. Told him my result.
His reaction was so different than from what I had expected. Well I knew he would be happy, but THAT happy? Whoa.
My facebook wall was flooded with congratualtions, status had a gazillion likes and then the 'congratulations' never ended. People congratulated me over chat, text messages, calls and what not. Yea yea, 7As wow.
I still expected more from me. Not just 7As.

I was still upset.. The next day, today,  I wokeup with a call from a friend screaming out congratulations and yelling how she had seen my name on the newspaper.
Newspaper? What? MY NAME?
I wokeup with a sudden shock and gasped and started jumping in excitement. Yeah, I was in the high achievers list. AWESOME!

I couldnt have been more happy in my life then this day. Today was this day.
Obviously I had to flaunt about it, so put a status on facebook. ;)
Even my mum put up a status saying how proud she was of me.

I logged on msn and started telling all my closest friends (of who's result I was proud of too) but the reaction I got was a simple, 'yeah, so?' 'big deal' and a ':|'.

Im not complaining here. I dont even need to. I know it shouldn't matter to me what others think, but those people aren't just 'others'. When it was my turn, I was really happy for them. But when its the same for those guys, they're just 'okay' about it. This extremely put me down. Yet again, I got upset. Its just that sometimes I expect too much from people, and in return get disappointed. Well.. whatever. It doesnt matter. Dont be nice to me, I wont be nice to you. Hmph.


AND OMG DID I JUST NOT MENTION ONCE AGAIN, IM ON THE HIGHEST ACHIEVERS LIST OH YEAH!



Oh yeah I'm getting a new laptop as a reward. OH YEAH!
Cya guys with another post soon. ;)

Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye?

Letting go people has never been an easy thing, and ofcourse its not. You lose people in the most varied ways. People die, people move long distances, or maybe sometimes little fights cause the separation, but what matters is the fact how much it hurts and how much we care.
I know, everyone of you might be thinking that yeah, this is a part of life. But is this fair? Ofcourse nothings fair ever and we gotta accept everything as it comes to us. THIS IS LIFE and THIS IS THE WAY IT HAS TO BE NO MATTER WHAT.
In this circle of life, we meet so many people. Just so many. Out of which, few become a part of our little world, and we accept them as our lovers, family, friends and what not. But theres this one person, who's not only your mom, or your sister, or your guardian, or your enemy, or your lover, but your BESTFRIEND too. They're the one. They're everything. From being family, to being an enemy, but all in all, being a best friend.
My bestfriend-Samar Haroon, is one in a million. There was a time when we were at the verge of literally killing eachother, but today we can give away our lives for eachother. Well atleast I would do that. ;) Haha.
She's that 5ft 11in tall girl, who walks like she owns the place, with her silky, long hair, her amazing, dazzling eyes, and the confidence that sets her apart, she is everything a girl would want to be. Ofcourse she is annoying at times too. Well A LOT. But its okay, you learn to go along with it.

True, has someone said, that you realize someones value only when they're gone. And in a day, my bestfriend's leaving for America. That one girl, who means the world to me, means more than family to me, and is my backbone, is leaving. Imagine letting go of a loved one and how hard it is. Nothing has ever hurt me more than the fact she is leaving. We both fight like crazy, indeed we do. Cursing at eachother and then promising to never ever talk again, but then in a few days time we're back together. As another one of our bestfriend, Sarah M, has said, 'You guys are like a married couple.' And funny it is, its kind of true.
I'll miss these little fights.

We used to rule our school. With her being the most dominating one, ofcourse. Whenever she said something, nobody argued because they knew eventually they would lose. Even I couldnt ever argue with her. It was just not in my hands to ever own an argument against her. Because she was always right.
I'll miss her 'I know everything' talks.

Being a leo, she was always bossy and still is. (Dont kill me for this, babe) but well, thats the way everyone loves her. She was never fake. Never lied. Never decieved. Was only the way she always was.
I hope you stay the same. :)

There is not a single thing that we haven't ever talked about. Late night calls with her were the best! So much gossip, just soooooo much. Sometimes being silent was everything we needed.
She knows me more than I know myself and she even knows exactly the way I would act in a certain situation. AH HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU FOR THAT, because it saves my god damn life always!

Samar Haroon, no matter how far away you go. No matter how long we don't get to meet, and no matter how much time we dont get to talk for, you should always know that I love you, and I always will. Because you are my bestfriend. And nobody could ever replace you. You're the best thing that ever happened to me, and having you in my life is something I would be thankful to God for every second of my life. I love you every second of my breathe, and I'll miss you every nano second of my life.

I love you. Stay the same forever. Much love,
Your crazy ass bestfriend,
Your lyls.
<3

TSKL-Taleem Sub Kay Liye (Summer School)

It was pretty awkward when I first stepped in Gul Hassan Lashari School. Since it was my first day, I had no idea where to go and what to do.  I am not really a shy person, but my first day at Summer School was a bit weird. Because a, I didn’t know anyone over there and b, I had no idea what I had to do.

I was assigned 1B that day. What a smashing day it was. Like LITERALLY. A window fell on my head and the glass broke into pieces.  And then, all of a sudden I was surrounded by the other teachers who quickly took me to the staff room.

‘Are you ok?’

‘SHOULD WE TAKE YOU TO THE DOCTOR?’

‘OMG, do you want chips? Want anything to eat?’

Oh yeah, I made new friends. *laughs*

So… yeah.  I was a teacher at the school. I had NO idea that one day I would be teaching kids. It is not easy teaching kids, alright? Even I didn’t know I would be able to control them. Every day, exactly 9 we used to reach the premises.  Every morning looking at all those bright faces used to give each and every one of us a wonderful feeling. No matter how tiring the job was, no matter how much hard work had to be put in, in the end of the day we all knew it was worth it. Entering the classes and hearing the kids greet you and refer you as ‘Miss’ or ‘Sir’ gave an exalting feeling itself. I was never an obedient student back in my school days, always used to bug my teachers and ran around the class. Getting to have a class like this was a lesson for me. It was like déjà vu. It took me quite some time to understand the kids psyche. All they needed was proper attention, and a friendly atmosphere which wasn’t being properly provided to them at their own schools. Such is the case of nearly every government school in Pakistan where teachers take up money without giving in any effort for the school in return. I remember teaching in 2B (which by the way was the BEST class) and I was telling them the correct pronunciation of parrot. They read it as ‘pay-roat’ or something like that. For continuous 10 minutes I made them pronounce the word repetitively until they said it right. It was one of their teachers who had taught them this pronunciation.  In the first few days of school, a group of four kids had constantly been a trouble. Never concentrated, never studied and barely ever cared for what was going around in class. Zahir, Fahim, Ahmed and Wajid. Fahim and Ahmed being the naughtiest ones, while Wajid and Zahir being weak in studies.  Me and 2 other co teachers worked hard on these four kids, and the change that came in them was incredible. Yesterday was the last day of school and looking at them made me so proud of myself. I had brought a change, maybe not to a large group, but at least to a few.  These four kids had not only improved academically but there was a change in their behavior as well. I asked Zahir that day that what had he learnt throughout the month, and his reply was, ‘To respect.’ 

The main aim of summer school, was for us students reach out to these kids and provide them with education in the right means.  None of us worked for the certificate, or money or any such sort of thing. We could’ve easily sat at our homes in air conditioned rooms, but no we didn’t. There were many alternatives but everyone of us chose THIS. Realizing our responsibility to the under privileged all of us availed this chance and made the best out of it.  This is exactly what every citizen of this country needs to do right now. To realize all the sufferings of the poor and to find solutions to their problems, that would ultimately solve our country’s problems.  The normal practice in government schools is nothing but a waste of money and time, which could be utilized in the most efficient ways but is not.  If people amongst us don’t look around and search for these problems, then how would solutions be found? How do we expect a change in this country, when all of us act selfish? This country is our responsibility and by finding and availing opportunities like this summer school, a big impact could be brought!

I am really sad while typing all of this, because summer school is now over and the attachment with the students has become really strong. By the grace of God, I was able to teach and He gave me the strength and patience to do so.  I pray for these kids to be successful in life and achieve all their dreams making their parents and this country proud. Amen.

(TSKL is a branch of registered NGO, “House Of Dreams”, started by the students of Nixor College and an initiative that aims to educate as many Pakistanis as possible.)

The Ultimate Survival Tips-TCS Senior Girls Branch.

So, you're from The City School? Senior Girls Branch? Yes? Ok. PECHS? Yeah? Ahan. You're in for some fun then, no?

Well hey! I recently graduated from that branch and well.. being amongst the well known girl over there, I had gone through possibly the worst and best of my times! So here are a few tips for all of you, who're gonna be studying in this branch. (Its a matter of life and death I SWEAR), so I hope these tips come in handy. Oh and yeah, no offence to anyone. ;)

1. Got friends in Senior Boys? Ultimate no-no.

2. If you have a boyfriend, no need to flaunt to the world. People are gonna end up making rumours that you aren't a virgin anymore.

3. NEVER EVERRRR put a love song as your status. People might end up believing you're madly in love. (Even when you're not)

4. If you're one of the popular girls, get ready to be called a slut by the boys from Senior Boys when you reject their 'fraandship request'.

5. Don't be afraid of having too many fake IDs. Seriously. Those boys are just jealous they dont have sexy bodies like you.

6. Have a hate page against you? Its probably by your secret lesbian lover.

7. If every single thing on your Facebook profile is overrated-YOU ARE POPULAR.

8. Showing attitude with a whole lotta kajal applied will get you nowhere.

9. If you want to keep your principal happy, DANCE FOR HER. (Yes, I've been through this)

10. No need to display your group fights to the whole world. They probably don't care. So stop putting status' pointing other girls. You're just giving everyone something spicy to talk on.

11. Think you're too cool and burger? JUST STFU. You're from Senior Girls.

12. Wearing grey sweaters around your waist is SO out of fashion. Seriously, dont. Its a fashion crime.

13. DRAMA. Star plus, live show. Only at Senior Girls.

14. You'll be crying your two years to get out of this branch, but when you do, you're gonna be crying out to get back in. You'll miss it. Trust me. :)

15. Accounts and free periods are 2 great synonyms.

16. Hypocrisy is in everyones nature, nearly. Don't be like those.

17. We hate the PAFIAN girls. We call them manhus. YES WE DO. If you dont, you're a manhus.

18. Getting in the damn council needs good badges and expensive banners. Thats it.

19. A pillow and a blanky is a must for English classes.

20. If your seniors hate you, go and apologize. Make up to them. SERIOUSLY DO THAT. You'll become ultra cool. B)

21. Go to Senior Boys and get a song dedicated? Don't cry. Be calm. Breathe. And say, 'Thankyou bhaiyya' :D

22. WE ARE NEVER HAVING A FAREWELL WITH THE SENIOR BOYS! Seriously. Stop believing those freakin' rumours.

23. If you have a boyfriend from Senior Boys.. seriously? GET A LIFE.

24. Bonfire's are seriously the most awaited events. Get yourself a nice dress made a month before.

25. Never follow your farewell theme.

26. Nobody likes a bitch. BE NICE.

27. Being friends with juniors is nothing wrong. Go upto them, hug em. Those little kids need lurvvv.

28. Wear waterproof makeup on your farewell. Trust me, the video's gonna make your eyes bleed water.

29. If you're kicked out of another school for being caught making out, and then ending up in Senior Girls-People are ought to find out. *evil laugh*

30. Literally, your friendships are gonna be at stake, try to make it through.

31. After all, we're all a big happy family. :D