Lily Allen as an inspiration.

'Look inside,
Look inside,
Your tiny mind.
Then look a bit harder,
cause we're so uninspired.
So sick and tired.
Of all
The hatred you harbor,
so you say
It's not okay to be gay,
Well I think
You're just evil.
You're just some racist.
Who can't tie my laces,
You're point of view
Is medevil.'-Fuck you.

It just says it all. You know what? Its OKAY to be gay.

'When you first left me I was wanting more
But you were fucking that girl next door, what ja do that for?
When you first left me I didn't know what to say
I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone'-Smile.

HAHA. Okay. This one speaks for itself. THANKYOU BEST FRIENDS.

'Can't knock em out, can't walk away,
Try desperately to think of the politest way to say,
Just get out my face, just leave me alone,
And no you can't have my number,
"Why?"
Because I've lost my phone.'-Knock em out.

For all the freak, despos who just cant stop annoying me. Get a life. NOT GETTING MY NUMBER EVER. Atleast not from me. And, I'm busy. So, Go away.

'I'm sorry if you feel that I'm being kinda mental,
But you left me in such a state.
But now I'm gonna do what you did to me,
Gonna reciprocate.'-Not big.

Weirdo, or whatever you call me. Like I give a shit to your 'Blah, blah, blah'
If I do what u did, u gonna freak out SUCKER.

'Look me up and down,
I don't make a sound,
There's a lesson that I want you to learn,
If you're gonna play with fire then you're gonna get burned,

Don't try and test me cos you'll get reaction,
Another drink and I'm ready for action,
I don't know who you think you are,
But making people scared wont get you very far.'-Friday Night

Bitches and Dogs, HULLO. Try to act over smart? Look up at me. You'll get your head straight down to earth. Think am a sissy? Come at front, let me straighten you up. (:

'I've been thinking that you've crossed the line,
if you disappeared that would be just fine,
'cause you waste my time and waste my money
and you're not too cool and not too funny!
Spreading your seed all over the town
getting too greedy and messing around:
Oh my gosh you must be joking me
if you think that you'll be poking me.'-Shame for you.

You. Are. Outta. My. League. Come when you get some respect. Come, when you get a life. Otherwise, GET LOST.

'Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt'-Littlest Thing.

Always gets me upset. Boom. Fuck. Like I care.
Wait I got a perfect line for a few of my emo friends.

'Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too'-from Littlest Things. For hafsa, and sumbul.

'What the fuck do you know?
Just cos you're old you think your wise,
But who the hell are you though,
I didn't even ask for your advice
You wanna keep your mouth shut,
You wanna take your thoughts elsewhere,
Cos you're doing in my nut,
And do you think I care?'-Take what you Take.

Exactly, go away and take ur sucky advices and corny statements with you, COS they hurt!! But, hey. IDGAF! :)

'I don't want us to have a fight,
But in the background I can hear you chatting shit,
I hear it every night.
And you think you're being really cool,
You've been doing it since we were both at school,
Now who looks like a fool.
'- Friend of Mine.

This is for all the biotches and dirt bags at school who have been doing shit with me and my friends! :D
Wait, I HAVE MORE SUCKERS.

'What happened to the good old days?
I was kinda hoping this was all a stupid phase
Who are you anyway?
I know you've heard this all before
I know some people who are calling you a whore
Don't know you anymore'

Haha, this ones for all the friends I have lost in the past years. F* you all. Glad you guys are outta my life!

But, here's this last one. And yeah, am actually glad to put up this one.

'Oh yeah, I'm fine,
Everything's just wonderful,
I'm having the time of my life.'-Everythings Just Wonderful.

Yes, I am indeed. Enjoying my life with my awesome family, my best friends, my teachers (blekh), school, seniors, whatever and those dirty guys! ;)

Cheerios! <3

The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible.

I've always had a complex.. Inferiority complex about myself.
Inferiority Comple:A persistent sense of inadequacy or a tendency to self-diminishment, sometimes resulting in excessive aggressiveness through overcompensation.
In simple words, I always under estimated myself. I still do. Maybe. Trying not to. Its the only thing I never forget doing. At a party, rather saying 'I look awesome' I'd be saying, 'Dang, look at her. She's so pretty. Wish I was too..'
And then I would see my own best friends in front of me. All girly. Pretty. Beautiful. Awesome. With a perfect dimple, or a perfect smile, or their perfect bodies. Outside, I'd be proud to call them MY best friends. Inside, I'd be saying, 'Why did God make me so ugly?'

'I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And I'm searching for the words inside my head

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect..'-Avril Lavigne

The only words that I used to desribe myself were with UGLY, HIDEOUS, PATHETIC. Why so? Cause some jerks said, "Lylaa-Ew that ugly one?" I show as if I don't care, but I do. And so at that time, it hurt me. IT struck me hard. I felt bad and thought, really was I that bad? Some people would sneer on my face. Others would pass comments, or whisper right in front of me. "Uh, she's such a weirdo.. I dont even know what she looks like. UGLY, simple!"

I am not the girly type of a girl, who'd go for beauty creams or whatever. (Major Ew)
So, I wondered what was exactly wrong with me? I mean, was it cause I was not 'white' or I had a snubby nose? Or was it cause of my fatso lips? OR maybe I was too skinny.. WHAT EXACTLY WAS WRONG WITH ME!?
Ok so I tried changing myself. Bought the most expensive clothes, wore the best of everything. Still, never worked. Whenever I would see the perfect faces in front of me, it would only make me feel worser than ever.

But then one day, while reading a book (and I don't remember which one) I came across this line : Be yourself and don't care about anyone's shit. Never let them take you out alive!

Okay, helpful. Again, those pretty faces. God, it was torture. I would scream on the inside, yet there was always a smile on my face.
Ugly, ugly, ugly, ugly, ugly, ugly..

Then, there was this perfect, cute guy. Not cute. Okay! *Laughs*
So, there it was. My crush. He is the most awesomest person alive.

'You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away

No i just don't understand why you
Wont talk to me it hurts that i'm
So unwanted for nothing don't
Talk words against me'

Owch.

Never mind. He has his perfect girl. Not exactly, still.
IT feels like I am invisible. Invisible to the world. Okay, wtf am I saying? :p

Self torture it is. Always cursing yourself. And for blaming all your failures on how you look!
But then one day I came across this quote: Love yourself, for if you don't, how can you expect anybody else to love you?

And that was when I realised what was the whole problem. What was wrong was the way I felt for myself. I always thought crap about me. And the more I heard others, I always used to care for what they talked about.

Instead of thinking about what you're missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing. Why compare yourself with others? No one in the entire world can do a better job of being you than you.Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do.You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. Never let anyone take you down.
And the fault always lies within.

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.

Super, Sexy, Sweet, Sixteen!

Sweet Sixteen, the age which every girl waits for since her teenhood starts.

Just like others, so did I.

'I wanna know what it feels like

I need to see it from the inside

I can taste a bit of what I will find

So much more to life

Sweet sixteen'-Hillary Duff

Had been waiting since 13! Dig that. *Laughs*

People say sixteen is an age of innocence. Okay hold it right there. INNOCENCE? Sure. Well yeah it is a very sensitive age. But hey, I am not here to talk about THAT. Lets talk about the

party.



A Sweet Sixteen is a traditional party for girls when they turn 16. Its a very special day for a girl, and yes A VERY SPECIAL day. A day when a girl steps into womenhood. For a family, it is a time when they very proudly show off their daughter to their family and friends. It is a time to create a magnificent feast and a blast. For the one turning sixteen, it is a time to get her best friends together for an unforgetable good time! It is that time, when she gets an opportunity to dress up in a beautiful outfit and show off herself in the best way and be the centre of attention for a day!



Well.. I just had my sixteenth celebrated few days ago. 4th june. :)

It was a mega blast. Better than I had expected it to be like. It was MY big day! From the million birthday wishes, to the million birthday posts on facebook, to the million calls, and the dozens of people appearing on my party and making it a huge blast!



I got around 40 texts, more than 200 wishes on facebook and loads of calls! My grandma threw me this little surprise party at home, with my family people. Then the next day starts off with a bad news. 'Cyclone Alert'.

That sure ticked me off, I mean it was my sweet sixteen and it was gonna be ruined by the stupid cyclone 'PHET'. I kept praying and praying hoping NOTHING would ruin it. And yeah, my prayers were heard.



So the next day, my best friend comes over and we get ready and on the way listen to some awesome music and then reach the hotel. Regent plaza, it was.



An amazing day TOTALLY! Around 40 people came, and made it such a huge day. I wore my special dress, the one my grandma made for me. Everyone said I looked beautiful, and oh well.. I did. :)
It was MY big day. My best friends, my family, and my friends were ALL there. Except my mom. That was a setback. I missed her a lot on my birthday, but then she called.
Anyways, from the millions of pictures, the videos, birthday bumps, songs for the birthday girl, my tiara, the food and what not.. it was an over all blast.
Never can I forget my sweet 16. Not only me, NOBODY CAN. IT was a memorable event for every single person!

'Well, memories will burn you
Memories grow older as people can
They just get colder
Like sweet sixteen'-Billy Idol

My sweet 16.. I can NEVER forget it. NEVER. 'Cause, thats the way it is..

The real world.

Life is so confusing. And so are the people around us. Everyone's weird. And, I top that list of weirdo's. But well its not about me, it's about those other weirdo's. Those friends.
Those friends, we really do care about. But one thing we never get is, that they always think we never care about them. It sucks. We can't really always express that part of us much, but we do try telling them that we care. They never understand. It's really annoying now.

People always have different views about others they barely know, but also at times they can have different views on people they KNOW. Many a times they are wrong. It's irritating when they tell us how much 'rude', 'mean' or 'un-humane' we are. I mean there are different types of people in this world. Ones who can express well, and ones who can't. It's not their fault if they don't show their personality.

Its quite hurtful when a friend tells us to get lost. Or when we tell our friend that we don't like seeing them sad. And we actually MEAN IT. But all they reply with is, 'Yeah right..'
We can't go around crying and giving public displays to let them know that we actually do CARE!