11thAugust'11-Nightmare turned to a dream come true.

Yeah. WOOHOO. Made it to the highest achievers list. Should I call it a dream come true? Well, maybe.
According to me I don't really have that an awe-inspiring result in my Olevels, but whatever it is, am thankful for it. 3A*s 4As and 2Bs.

Satisfying much.

Result day was two days back, the most dreaded day EVER. The feelings are a bit complexed because as much as everybody was curious to know their results, they were scared as well, thinking they might've screwed up their Olevels. I was pretty chill until 12 hours before the day itself, and thats when I broke up into tears. I didnt show my frustration to my friends that much because they were themselves so stressed out thinking they'd end up with 'D's' or 'U's' and all the worst possible grades.

When the day arrived itself, heartbeats grew faster and so did tention. I told all my bestfriends to let me know their results. I was awake the whole night, excitement and adrenaline rushed deep inside! Outside I was quite, but inside I was screaming out for help, to end this nightmare, and to quickly get over this phase.
The first message I got was from a friend, and also my student who I taught Islamiyat. 7 am and a good news arises with a friend getting 4A*s and 5As. WOW! Called him up. Never had I been so proud of him then that day. I was so exhaulted and happy for him!
Gradually more good news came in. Even the friend who expected straight Us managed to get good grades. I congratulated each and every one of them. Never had I been proud of them all.

The point was that I was happy. For my friends. YES I WAS.
Few hours later I got to know mine as well. I was a bit down, because I hadnt expected to get a B and that too in Economics. Oh well. Thats just the way it was meant to be.

Came home, was a bit low. Called up dad. Told him my result.
His reaction was so different than from what I had expected. Well I knew he would be happy, but THAT happy? Whoa.
My facebook wall was flooded with congratualtions, status had a gazillion likes and then the 'congratulations' never ended. People congratulated me over chat, text messages, calls and what not. Yea yea, 7As wow.
I still expected more from me. Not just 7As.

I was still upset.. The next day, today,  I wokeup with a call from a friend screaming out congratulations and yelling how she had seen my name on the newspaper.
Newspaper? What? MY NAME?
I wokeup with a sudden shock and gasped and started jumping in excitement. Yeah, I was in the high achievers list. AWESOME!

I couldnt have been more happy in my life then this day. Today was this day.
Obviously I had to flaunt about it, so put a status on facebook. ;)
Even my mum put up a status saying how proud she was of me.

I logged on msn and started telling all my closest friends (of who's result I was proud of too) but the reaction I got was a simple, 'yeah, so?' 'big deal' and a ':|'.

Im not complaining here. I dont even need to. I know it shouldn't matter to me what others think, but those people aren't just 'others'. When it was my turn, I was really happy for them. But when its the same for those guys, they're just 'okay' about it. This extremely put me down. Yet again, I got upset. Its just that sometimes I expect too much from people, and in return get disappointed. Well.. whatever. It doesnt matter. Dont be nice to me, I wont be nice to you. Hmph.


AND OMG DID I JUST NOT MENTION ONCE AGAIN, IM ON THE HIGHEST ACHIEVERS LIST OH YEAH!



Oh yeah I'm getting a new laptop as a reward. OH YEAH!
Cya guys with another post soon. ;)

Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye?

Letting go people has never been an easy thing, and ofcourse its not. You lose people in the most varied ways. People die, people move long distances, or maybe sometimes little fights cause the separation, but what matters is the fact how much it hurts and how much we care.
I know, everyone of you might be thinking that yeah, this is a part of life. But is this fair? Ofcourse nothings fair ever and we gotta accept everything as it comes to us. THIS IS LIFE and THIS IS THE WAY IT HAS TO BE NO MATTER WHAT.
In this circle of life, we meet so many people. Just so many. Out of which, few become a part of our little world, and we accept them as our lovers, family, friends and what not. But theres this one person, who's not only your mom, or your sister, or your guardian, or your enemy, or your lover, but your BESTFRIEND too. They're the one. They're everything. From being family, to being an enemy, but all in all, being a best friend.
My bestfriend-Samar Haroon, is one in a million. There was a time when we were at the verge of literally killing eachother, but today we can give away our lives for eachother. Well atleast I would do that. ;) Haha.
She's that 5ft 11in tall girl, who walks like she owns the place, with her silky, long hair, her amazing, dazzling eyes, and the confidence that sets her apart, she is everything a girl would want to be. Ofcourse she is annoying at times too. Well A LOT. But its okay, you learn to go along with it.

True, has someone said, that you realize someones value only when they're gone. And in a day, my bestfriend's leaving for America. That one girl, who means the world to me, means more than family to me, and is my backbone, is leaving. Imagine letting go of a loved one and how hard it is. Nothing has ever hurt me more than the fact she is leaving. We both fight like crazy, indeed we do. Cursing at eachother and then promising to never ever talk again, but then in a few days time we're back together. As another one of our bestfriend, Sarah M, has said, 'You guys are like a married couple.' And funny it is, its kind of true.
I'll miss these little fights.

We used to rule our school. With her being the most dominating one, ofcourse. Whenever she said something, nobody argued because they knew eventually they would lose. Even I couldnt ever argue with her. It was just not in my hands to ever own an argument against her. Because she was always right.
I'll miss her 'I know everything' talks.

Being a leo, she was always bossy and still is. (Dont kill me for this, babe) but well, thats the way everyone loves her. She was never fake. Never lied. Never decieved. Was only the way she always was.
I hope you stay the same. :)

There is not a single thing that we haven't ever talked about. Late night calls with her were the best! So much gossip, just soooooo much. Sometimes being silent was everything we needed.
She knows me more than I know myself and she even knows exactly the way I would act in a certain situation. AH HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU FOR THAT, because it saves my god damn life always!

Samar Haroon, no matter how far away you go. No matter how long we don't get to meet, and no matter how much time we dont get to talk for, you should always know that I love you, and I always will. Because you are my bestfriend. And nobody could ever replace you. You're the best thing that ever happened to me, and having you in my life is something I would be thankful to God for every second of my life. I love you every second of my breathe, and I'll miss you every nano second of my life.

I love you. Stay the same forever. Much love,
Your crazy ass bestfriend,
Your lyls.
<3

TSKL-Taleem Sub Kay Liye (Summer School)

It was pretty awkward when I first stepped in Gul Hassan Lashari School. Since it was my first day, I had no idea where to go and what to do.  I am not really a shy person, but my first day at Summer School was a bit weird. Because a, I didn’t know anyone over there and b, I had no idea what I had to do.

I was assigned 1B that day. What a smashing day it was. Like LITERALLY. A window fell on my head and the glass broke into pieces.  And then, all of a sudden I was surrounded by the other teachers who quickly took me to the staff room.

‘Are you ok?’

‘SHOULD WE TAKE YOU TO THE DOCTOR?’

‘OMG, do you want chips? Want anything to eat?’

Oh yeah, I made new friends. *laughs*

So… yeah.  I was a teacher at the school. I had NO idea that one day I would be teaching kids. It is not easy teaching kids, alright? Even I didn’t know I would be able to control them. Every day, exactly 9 we used to reach the premises.  Every morning looking at all those bright faces used to give each and every one of us a wonderful feeling. No matter how tiring the job was, no matter how much hard work had to be put in, in the end of the day we all knew it was worth it. Entering the classes and hearing the kids greet you and refer you as ‘Miss’ or ‘Sir’ gave an exalting feeling itself. I was never an obedient student back in my school days, always used to bug my teachers and ran around the class. Getting to have a class like this was a lesson for me. It was like déjà vu. It took me quite some time to understand the kids psyche. All they needed was proper attention, and a friendly atmosphere which wasn’t being properly provided to them at their own schools. Such is the case of nearly every government school in Pakistan where teachers take up money without giving in any effort for the school in return. I remember teaching in 2B (which by the way was the BEST class) and I was telling them the correct pronunciation of parrot. They read it as ‘pay-roat’ or something like that. For continuous 10 minutes I made them pronounce the word repetitively until they said it right. It was one of their teachers who had taught them this pronunciation.  In the first few days of school, a group of four kids had constantly been a trouble. Never concentrated, never studied and barely ever cared for what was going around in class. Zahir, Fahim, Ahmed and Wajid. Fahim and Ahmed being the naughtiest ones, while Wajid and Zahir being weak in studies.  Me and 2 other co teachers worked hard on these four kids, and the change that came in them was incredible. Yesterday was the last day of school and looking at them made me so proud of myself. I had brought a change, maybe not to a large group, but at least to a few.  These four kids had not only improved academically but there was a change in their behavior as well. I asked Zahir that day that what had he learnt throughout the month, and his reply was, ‘To respect.’ 

The main aim of summer school, was for us students reach out to these kids and provide them with education in the right means.  None of us worked for the certificate, or money or any such sort of thing. We could’ve easily sat at our homes in air conditioned rooms, but no we didn’t. There were many alternatives but everyone of us chose THIS. Realizing our responsibility to the under privileged all of us availed this chance and made the best out of it.  This is exactly what every citizen of this country needs to do right now. To realize all the sufferings of the poor and to find solutions to their problems, that would ultimately solve our country’s problems.  The normal practice in government schools is nothing but a waste of money and time, which could be utilized in the most efficient ways but is not.  If people amongst us don’t look around and search for these problems, then how would solutions be found? How do we expect a change in this country, when all of us act selfish? This country is our responsibility and by finding and availing opportunities like this summer school, a big impact could be brought!

I am really sad while typing all of this, because summer school is now over and the attachment with the students has become really strong. By the grace of God, I was able to teach and He gave me the strength and patience to do so.  I pray for these kids to be successful in life and achieve all their dreams making their parents and this country proud. Amen.

(TSKL is a branch of registered NGO, “House Of Dreams”, started by the students of Nixor College and an initiative that aims to educate as many Pakistanis as possible.)

The Ultimate Survival Tips-TCS Senior Girls Branch.

So, you're from The City School? Senior Girls Branch? Yes? Ok. PECHS? Yeah? Ahan. You're in for some fun then, no?

Well hey! I recently graduated from that branch and well.. being amongst the well known girl over there, I had gone through possibly the worst and best of my times! So here are a few tips for all of you, who're gonna be studying in this branch. (Its a matter of life and death I SWEAR), so I hope these tips come in handy. Oh and yeah, no offence to anyone. ;)

1. Got friends in Senior Boys? Ultimate no-no.

2. If you have a boyfriend, no need to flaunt to the world. People are gonna end up making rumours that you aren't a virgin anymore.

3. NEVER EVERRRR put a love song as your status. People might end up believing you're madly in love. (Even when you're not)

4. If you're one of the popular girls, get ready to be called a slut by the boys from Senior Boys when you reject their 'fraandship request'.

5. Don't be afraid of having too many fake IDs. Seriously. Those boys are just jealous they dont have sexy bodies like you.

6. Have a hate page against you? Its probably by your secret lesbian lover.

7. If every single thing on your Facebook profile is overrated-YOU ARE POPULAR.

8. Showing attitude with a whole lotta kajal applied will get you nowhere.

9. If you want to keep your principal happy, DANCE FOR HER. (Yes, I've been through this)

10. No need to display your group fights to the whole world. They probably don't care. So stop putting status' pointing other girls. You're just giving everyone something spicy to talk on.

11. Think you're too cool and burger? JUST STFU. You're from Senior Girls.

12. Wearing grey sweaters around your waist is SO out of fashion. Seriously, dont. Its a fashion crime.

13. DRAMA. Star plus, live show. Only at Senior Girls.

14. You'll be crying your two years to get out of this branch, but when you do, you're gonna be crying out to get back in. You'll miss it. Trust me. :)

15. Accounts and free periods are 2 great synonyms.

16. Hypocrisy is in everyones nature, nearly. Don't be like those.

17. We hate the PAFIAN girls. We call them manhus. YES WE DO. If you dont, you're a manhus.

18. Getting in the damn council needs good badges and expensive banners. Thats it.

19. A pillow and a blanky is a must for English classes.

20. If your seniors hate you, go and apologize. Make up to them. SERIOUSLY DO THAT. You'll become ultra cool. B)

21. Go to Senior Boys and get a song dedicated? Don't cry. Be calm. Breathe. And say, 'Thankyou bhaiyya' :D

22. WE ARE NEVER HAVING A FAREWELL WITH THE SENIOR BOYS! Seriously. Stop believing those freakin' rumours.

23. If you have a boyfriend from Senior Boys.. seriously? GET A LIFE.

24. Bonfire's are seriously the most awaited events. Get yourself a nice dress made a month before.

25. Never follow your farewell theme.

26. Nobody likes a bitch. BE NICE.

27. Being friends with juniors is nothing wrong. Go upto them, hug em. Those little kids need lurvvv.

28. Wear waterproof makeup on your farewell. Trust me, the video's gonna make your eyes bleed water.

29. If you're kicked out of another school for being caught making out, and then ending up in Senior Girls-People are ought to find out. *evil laugh*

30. Literally, your friendships are gonna be at stake, try to make it through.

31. After all, we're all a big happy family. :D

Abortion-Justified or not?

It is a very interesting topic, since I barely write on such things, but I think we must certainly look upon such social issues and discuss in detail about them to not only increase are knowledge, but find better solutions for the future.

Let me get started at the keyword here, and that is 'Abortion'. What exactly is an abortion? It is the expulsion of human fetus.
Abortion, in other words is also termed as 'murder' by many people all over the world. They believe it is killing a human. The question occurs, that is it really 'human'? Pregnancy has 3 trimesters, the first one being from week 1 till week 12. And during that period, the fetus is just a fetus with no ability to think, and no conscious. So can the fetus be termed as a 'child'? No.
It is true that that no one in this world has been given the authority to end a life, as that right lies in the hands of the Creator only, but one most also consider certain situations which make abortion necessary.
It is the woman who has to carry the child in her womb for 9 months, and it is her who has to go through the suffering of giving birth to the child. So doesn't the mother have the choice to decide whether she wants to carry that child or not?
Nobody has to do that task for her, and hence, it is totally unquestionable as to who gets to make the decision. Although if we think about it in a much more 'ethical' way, aborting might not always be the right decision if there is no valid reason available.

A woman getting raped, incest, fetal deformity, mother's health being at risk, and other issues that will be discussed further are such reasons which might force a woman to abort her fetus.

If a girl is raped, then she is not at fault so why keep a constant reminder of that dreadly event in front of her eyes, when she has the choice of not to do so? Killing the fetus might sound draconian, but by shadowing the girls choice.. THAT is draconian as well! Let us go through another example of incest. Incest is sexual intercourse between close relatives, and it is a form of child abuse as well. There have been many cases which have resulted in unwanted pregnancies. The Huntington Case is an example of it and Journal Gazette states,

'She told Huntington police and investigators with the Huntington County prosecutor’s office that her father began having sex with her.

Sometimes he told her he would pay her for certain sex acts or intercourse, and other times he would use sex as a form of punishment, such as for losing her job, drinking or bringing him methamphetamine instead of crack cocaine when he sent her out to buy drugs for him.'

No wonder this is inhumanity, so why should the victim suffer for something that is not even her fault?

Medical conditions are also amongst those reasons which are acceptable for an abortion. Sometimes the mothers health is at risk and therefore the only solution for that is abortion. It wouldnt make sense, that putting the mothers life in danger would be better than to abort the child.

Technology has advanced greatly and now it could also be determined whether the child is going to have a certain disability or not. In that case, yet again it would sound stupid to give birth to a child that has a sickness with him. This would not only hurt the child but also the parents. If you're aware that, suppose, your child is going to suffer from a severe disability, then for how long are you going to take care of him? For how long will you be always there for him? You never know what happens, so would you want him to suffer in this world when there is no one to look after him?

I guess we all know the answer to that.

Ethically speaking, yes, it is wrong to get abortion if its cause of your own mistake. That is pre marital pregnancy. If its YOUR mistake, then no one has given you the right to kill that innocent life!
Women of today have become so much more career-oriented, that they prefer abortions over giving birth.
God has given us all a brain, right? Then why not take protection and simply avoid the consequence?

HAVE SAFE SEX, GOD DAMN IT! Is that hard to understand? When you dont want to have a baby, then why do something which will cause one!

To sum it all up, what I'd say is that abortion is justified to a certain extent, only is a valid reason is stated, otherwise it is not only ethically wrong, but socially wrong as well! Cause thats the way it is..

It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that things are difficult.

Life is never the way we want it to be.
For certain, human nature is too selfish. We always want the best in our life, and never to have bad experiences.
This can not be so. We ask why?
So many questions run around our head everyday, that why cant human be happy every second of the time? Why cant be that so?
Sometimes, we're not happy with our looks, sometimes we're not happy with the most unconcerned things like our dresses, the shoes we wear, maybe our friends, or maybe where we live.. or sometimes, simply, human being is not happy with his life.

Why so?
That is the exact question which arises in every mind. Money cant buy happiness, right? But even if it does, you might see a very rich man, who is sick and tired of his rebellious children, or maybe a very rich kid, who is frustrated about the fact he's being used by all of his friends due to his wealth. Whatever the situation is, not a single person in this world can EVER be happy with whatever he has.

What I am about to write is not based on human satisfaction, but based on certain situations in life.
Certain events in life take place which cause great damage to a persons life in someway. We might lose hope. Sometimes we might lose faith.

And that is when we become weak.

Never ever lose faith and hope.
Trust Allah.
If there was only good in the world, people would not gain something from experiences they've had with bad events. Believe in Allah and seek His guidance, when you know that nothings going right. Trust Him, for what He does is for the best. And for sure He will someday give you its reward. Your patience and your belief in Him never goes to waste. If the world accuses you and laughs at you, say nothing.. but pray.

This world is too cold. You cant go around telling everyone that you are not a bad person. Who is going to believe you?
No one will.
Everyone is too selfish and too busy in their lives. Seek nobodys aid, but God's. Its He, who will be there for you at your worse and better. Not anyone else.

Your faith and trust in Him, teaches you patience, tolerance and steadfastness.
These are the key things for a successful life in hereafter.

No matter what goes on in your life, accept it and face it and rememember that it is a test. It is a test from God, because He knows that you are strong enough to face it.
Dont ever lose hope.
Pray, thank Allah and ask for His forgiveness. Be happy no matter what, and never complain. There are people who are worse off and have much terrible lives.
If you start thanking Allah, you will see that this world is not something we should worry about. But what we should worry about, is that in all circumstances we must never do anything wrong, which is against the will of Allah.

That is because, thats the way it is..